*!~I'm Back~!*

So its been forever since I have written on this blog. I thought I would try and keep it updated over the summer but that never happened and it just so happens that i don't have to blog for school anymore which means that I probably wont be blogging that much this year. So now I am back and blogging again and I really have nothing to blog about. This week is powder puff and class games and homecoming so I will prolly have something to blog about later this week. Adios people!

!Schools Out for Summer!~

So now that school is pretty much out for summer I have made a vow that I will at least try to blog on this blog sometimes this summer. Sometimes I am bad about things like this but I will try to blog a lot this summer and keep my blog up to date. I am very excited to be getting out for summer and technically considering myself a senior now. Oh and by the way congrats all of those seniors that are graduating this year!! Woot Woot this is your time to shine! I can't wait till its my time to graduate even though I am not quite sure what college I want to go to or what I really want to spend the rest of my life doing. I will figure it out sometime(just hopefully before I am 50......lol jk). Welp that's it for now folks.

!!~Schools Almost Out~!!

So this week all I can think about is how school is coming to its close. I am so excited to be out for summer but then again I am a little depressed that I wont be able to see my friends every day. This school year has went by so fast that it seems like just yesterday that i was getting my schedule and going to my new classes. I really am happy to be finishing my Junior year and I am happy to be on my way to the senior class. There is one thing I will miss next year that I wont get to enjoy anymore at all. I will miss Mrs. Rodriguez. I am not just sucking up because this is my blog for her class either, I truly will miss being in this class(after all I went through all the trouble to be in this class second semester anyways). I enjoyed your class and it was always one I looked forward to going to. Well this is my last blog of the school year so I must say farewell to all of the seniors and good luck in your bright futures. Adios people.

~~!!!Craziness!!!~~

So the last couple weeks have been very stressful. I honestly thought that the stress would kind of wind down after PSAT's but that didn't happen. This past two weeks have been just as bad as before. I think its pathetic that people get mad at each other so often and then go back to the way it was before until the next cat fight roles around. Thank goodness i haven't been pulled into anything yet. I hate being mad at people and I don't like it when my friends aren't getting along. I feel like I am the middle man and all my friends are mad at each other. Also another thing that has been bothering me is that my best friend in the whole world has been thinking about getting back with her ex. Only problem is, I really don't think that's a good idea. I know it isn't up to me but it upsets me that she has decided to go back to the same thing that just a couple months ago she couldn't wait to get away from. I have told her my point of view and I honestly hope she is considering it more than she looks like she is. Of course I want her to be happy but I don't want to see her hurt again. All I know is that I can't control what my friends do or say and so I think I will just stick with Mary. I am neutral........ Like Sweden!!

~!!PROM!!~

So the biggest thing that has happened within the last week was Prom. I honestly didn't think that i would have as good as a time as i did have because i really don't dance much but i honestly had a blast. Prom was the funnest night of my life so far and i really enjoyed it. I swear that there wasn't one song that i didn't dance to and i was jumping up and down the whole time. I did make one mistake though. I wore a long dress.BIG MISTAKE! I think next year i will be smarter and i will wear a short dress and then i wont have to worry about stepping on it. Well prom was a blast and i encourage anyone to go who thinks it will not be fun.

I have been reading this book called the "Weight of Silence" and it is really good. I honestly love this book and I would have to say its the best book I have read since reading the Twilight Series. The story takes place in Iowa and it is about these two little girls that go missing and their families begin looking for them. The story runs through everyone's life multiple times during the story and explains the history of each of the characters. Its the perfect story if someone is looking for a little bit of a suspense or mystery like story. It also has a little bit of romance in it too. I haven't gotten all the way through the story yet, but I am at the climax and it is getting really good. I just hope that the story ends the way I want it to. So if you are ever in the mood to read a book and don't know what to read, I would truly recommend this one.

My Weekend

So last weekend my mom and I had family up from Kentucky and stay with us. Their names are Denise, who is my moms cousin, and Megan and Alonna who are Denise's daughters. They arrived on Thursday night and we went to Savoias to get some pizza nuggets because Denise wanted to try them the last time she was up here. Turns out... THEY ARE THE BEST THING THEY HAVE EVER HAD!! According to them, the part of Kentucky they live in does not have any Italian restaurants, so they haven't had Italian food in forever. Since Denise liked the pizza nuggets so much, she nick named them "little pillows of heaven". Ha Ha. Then on Friday, we went up to Decatur to pick up my prom dress that had been on lay away forever and then we went to the mall to find shoes for me, Megan, and Alonna for prom. It was fun for a while but it kinda got boring because I was taking forever. Lol. The next day we went to The Disc, which is this fitness center on the Millikin campus. The Disc has pretty much everything except for a pool inside of it. It has like three basketball courts separated by walls that can be pulled up to reveal a full length soccer field and then all of this is surrounded by a track. They also have a rock wall, tons of weight lifting rooms, a volleyball court, a lounge, a ballet studio(with all the mirrors around it), and a golf room. We finished in Decatur with climbing the rock-wall and then headed home. When we got home, Denise had to have "little pillows of heaven" so we ordered pizza and then me, Megan, and Beth went to Mexican late that night for some fried ice cream. After that we went to Wal-Mart to mess around. They ended up taking off in my car and driving around the parking lot without me. Ha. Sunday Denise, my mom, and I went mushroom hunting but didn't find anything. Soon after, Denise, Megan, and Alonna left for Kentucky but not without taking SIX ORDERS OF "LITTLE PILLOWS OF HEAVEN" WITH THEM!! We were sad that they left but next its our turn to go down there. Hopefully we get to go down there and go boating and tubing this summer!

Prom

So, me and my group of friends wanted to rent a limo for prom night. The only problem is, is that people keep backing out at the same time that I am trying to get things together. The owner of the limo just contacted me and said that the limo is available for that night and that it will be 520 for a 10 seat limo which is awesome because that is only 52 dollars per person. That is only if ten people will actually ride. People just backed out last minute and now I don't know if I will be able to get the limo because too many people are backing out. I just hope that it all comes together and that me and the friends that still want to ride will get to ride in the limo. If we do get the limo I will be so relieved that I wont have to drive over to Terre Haute in a big dress. I can only hope for the best and the best probably wont happen but I will live.

Drama

Ok so usually I do the spring musical here at school. This year I signed up and got a part but eventually dropped out for numerous reasons. I hate the fact that I did this because I love drama and its the only thing I really get into here at school. Its really hard to see people performing a play that I wish I were in, so Im not going to see the play either. It may sound like something little, but I am so bummed out that I didnt stay in play and I truly regret it. I always had this thing about making a goal to be in four musicals because it was just something that I wanted to do. Well now thats too late because I cant take back whats already done. Now I can only hope that next year will be a really fun play and that I decide to do the play next year.

Saturday

I had a really good weekend and I don't have anything else to write about so I will write about it. First off I spent all day Saturday helping my mom clean the apartment which wasn't very fun because it was a really nice day outside. After we were finished with the apartment my mother went out with a friend and so did I. Jessie Smith and i went to Wal-Mart where we eventually called our friend Beth and told her to come out to Wal-Mart with us. When Beth got there Jessie and I hid behind the comforters on the shelf and had Beth seek us. The only problem was that my feet were sticking out and they were totally noticeable. Once Beth finally found us she hit the comforter that I was behind and I screamed. Eventually it was just me and Jessie because Beth had to go home so we just did random stuff the rest of the night. I had a lot of fun and I think they did too.

Hurt

Ok so my internet wouldnt work last week and it really sucked because I couldnt blog and I really wanted to for no particular reason at all. I dont really have much to write about but I will try to write something. I know that all teenagers have problems and that there are alot of people with problems bigger than mine, but I have to get this out of my system. I have parents that are split up and ready to be divorced and they both want my time. I live with my mom and I cant imagine how much that hurts my dad, but I cant be with both of them anymore and my sister is with my dad so I chose to stay with my mom. On top of all this, my weekends are supposed to be split between the two of them with Saturday being my moms and Sunday being my dads. This wouldnt be a problem except for where is my time with my friends or my time to myself. I have told them both how much I hurt and sometimes I feel as if they dont realize when they are hurting me. I feel like I am between the two of them and they both are tugging on one of my arms and ripping me apart. Well thats all I feel like writing.

Books

Since this week there hasn't been much going on, I have decided to write about books. I love and cherish books! They can take you away from the place you are standing and pull you down their paths. My favorite book series would have to be the Twilight series(big surprise right) and i have read all four books three times. I love them and they are addicting. I finally decided that i needed to pull myself away from them and read other books so now I am reading The Lovely Bones which is also very good. It kinda gets confusing at certain points because it jumps from the past to the present in different parts but its a very good book. Next in line for me is Salem Falls by Jodi Picoult. My sister read it and said it was really good so I want to read it too. That's it for now. Hopefully i will have something better to talk about next week.

My Best Friend

Ok so since I dont really have anything to write about today I'm just going to write about the lame old subject that no one else cares about which is my best friend. Unlike most other people my best friend isnt someone I go to school with, its someone I live with. My best friend in the whole world is my sister. She is loving and caring and someone I love to spend my spare time with. Her name is Kayla Jane Gent and she is 20 years old. Personality wise she is sarcastic and any random person would think that she is rude but I understand her better than anyone so I know thats not the truth. I dont always get to spend that much time with my sister considering the fact that we live with two different parents but that doesnt always drive us apart. She still understands me more than anyone I know, shes the one i go to for advice, and she is the one that I can just let go of my shyness or whatever else thats holding me back and just be myself around. If anyone knows me better than I know myself it would be my sister and thats why she is my best friend. I love my sis with all my heart an d that will never change.

Love

Because its getting close to Valentines Day, I'm going to write about the B-E-A-U-tiful 4 letter word everyone is talking about. L.O.V.E. Its a beautiful word and it can be used in so many different ways. I remember in 6th grade when Mrs. Freeze taught her classes about four different types of love. I had never thought about it long enough to realize that there were different types of love for all the different people that i loved. First was Eros, which is what is most commonly meant when someone says "I'm in love". Eros is the type of love that occurs when you get that butterfly stomach feeling every time you see a certain person. Although Eros can make us feel like we are floating in the clouds, it is not a reliable basis for building a relationship. The second type of love is philia. Philia is the type of love one shares toward a friend. Along the same lines as eros, philia can not be a reliable basis for a friendship. Once a friend says or does something hurtful, the feeling can just as well evaporate. Unlike eros and philia, agape(which is my favorite because its a beautiful word and a very strong type of love) is not the type to just evaporate when something goes wrong, it is a choice of love. Agape can also exist in both cases of philia and eros. The fourth type of love is storge. Storge is the type of love one shares toward a family member. Its amazing how one small word can mean so many different things. So here goes it je t'aime, te amo, Ich liebe Dich. That's "I love you" in french, Spanish, and German!!!

Random........

Today I'm going to write about prom. Its probably what a million other girls are writing about but, just like all of the other girls, I'm very excited and i cant wait to get my dress. Of course i have already wasted time looking at dresses on the internet and finding the ones i like. The reason i said "wasted time" is because even though i have looked at them and found the one that I'm sure i want, it doesn't mean that I'm going to get it. The dress i want is probably like $400 dollars and I cant afford that. A girl can dream right? Well im sure that i will get a beautiful dress even if its not the one i really want. On top of the excitement of going to prom in May, i just got a babysitting job! It may not sound very exciting but its my first job and so I'm very happy to at least be making money. I will get paid $15 a day which isn't so bad, and i am going to save the money up for a trip this summer.

Whatever comes to mind........

I'm back and the randomness starts again!!! OK so for all those people who got held back......... it truly sucks!!! I mean not only are you a grade behind, have an extra year in school, and all your friends move ahead of you, but everyone who knows you is just like "oh so your in this grade right?" (meaning a grade ahead of yours). For example today i had two people ask me "so your a senior this year right?" and I'm just like "i wish! But no, I'm a Junior". I know that its not my fault that i got held back, and that i shouldn't be whining about it (i mean at least i survived cancer right)but it gets harder and harder all the time now. I just think about the fact that i could have been graduating in May, or the fact that i could be applying for colleges and working on getting a life of my own and it makes me feel so much worse. Even worse than that though........... I'm ready to get out of this god forsaken town!! Sometimes i feel like I'm on the verge of breaking and its not cool. So i always have to tell myself that God will do whats right and i guess this was meant to be. I just hope things will be better in the future! Adios Amigos!

Just about me!

This blog will just be about me and how GREAT i am (lol, just kidding). I have to be honest, I'm straight forward, sometimes harsh, and VERY random. But beside this crazy and random side i do have a sincere side too. Most people are writing about what they did over Christmas break, but to be honest i didn't really do anything that great, so I'm just going to point out the fact that i got a really cool $300 digital camera for Christmas. Now get ready, here comes the randomness.......... What do you people, as teenagers, do in Paris Illinois to have fun? I mean, there is nothing that interests me here in town and to get to places that have entertaining things, you have to drive at least 15 minutes if not longer. I think that there should be some kind of hangout place that's FREE to get into with soda machines, games, music, tables, TV's, and just things that are fun, things that give us something to do(I'm thinking like..........Bogeys or Chuck E Cheeses for teenagers). Yep that's what i think and that's enough random convo for today so I'm out. Adios!